The Lord gives and takes away.

This isn't as serious as the title may sound. 

So I got a call today from my Starbucks boss and well...  I've been let go.  That's right they let me go before I even started, not one free bag of coffee came my way UHG!  He said he got word from the higher ups that he is to absorb some of the other partners who may need hours due to store closers etc. before he hires on new partners.   

Actually, this kind of comes as a relief to me.  I do want to work there some day but I'm just not sure I want to quite yet.  The boys are still so small and I would have to work opposite David's schedule and we are such quality time people that well we get a little cranky when we don't get it.

So I believe the Lord was looking out for us there and I will do my best to appreciate this stage in life where I get to stay at home, cook, clean, workout, volunteer, play, etc.

OH, and any ideas on MAN gifts or stocking stuffers?

FAT PANTS!

OMGsh, my fat pants barely fit me. I have got to do something! I work out hard I really do.

I lift weights, cardio, and everything- and I just keep gaining weight. 

I'm afraid I can't eat right. It's too much my crutch, my comfort. I'm afraid of failure so I never

really try. Or I try w/o real comittment so I don't actually fail b/c I never really tried. 

I've got to do something but all this realization makes me want to do is eat ice cream.

Lord help me. I desperately need your help to get control of this out of control area of my life.

Work in me, change me, use me.

My first entry

This is my blog to log my eating, exercise, or whatever else I want. It is not ment for anyone else but me. My goal is to use this blog to help me recognize my patterns and hopefully encourage me to change my ways! I am heavier than I have ever been before... even when I was pregnant so.... I've got to make a change.

So far today I...

Biked 10 miles/30 min
Walked 1/2 mile
Wieghts Upper body


B- Smoothie/pop tart
L- Peanut Butter apple butter sand w/apple and milk
S- 1/2 cup m&m's and peanuts